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I can't pretend to write something nice for the sake of updating obcompfreak. I can't pretend to have run out of things to say for fear of hurting anyone's feelings. I can't compel myself to be all bubbly and cheerful when I'm bleeding inside.

Why maintain a blog that only shows half of me?

So, as a tribute to my first Obcompfreak blog, I've decided to transfer choice posts that actually matter to me...



Posted Wednesday,Oct. 11, 2006

Love never considers...
You're wrapped in it all your life
yet still feel something amiss
You bask in its radiant glory
yet know it could blind you with pain
You take the road hesitantly traveled
yet the wheels burst and you're not even half way there
You dream at night, dawn, and day
yet your nightmares' promises keep you at bay
Your smile tames even the most daring of tempests
yet your tears signal the world's last bliss
You offer your heart - whole, half, a portion
yet the gnawing of your soul comes undiscovered
You're trapped in silly poems and giggles
yet still wail upon a chanced escape
Your heart paves way for passion
yet you shut the curtains just as the show begins
Love never considers
simply because fear rests on your shoulders

(I know I'm not much of a poet and I can only laugh at myself)

Posted Saturday, November 11, 2006

When I looked at the mirror
and saw an untamed expression,
I touched its silver surface and shivered
How long has it been since I saw that last ray of glee?
How long has it been since I smiled away my anxiety?
I tried to grasp what the glowing glass said
But the unadorned plane simply stared back
How could I have let indifference reign?

(another poetic suckfest...i promise this is the last...)