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But just in case our world gets twisted and every fantasy becomes a reality, I might as well make a list of the qualities I look for in the person I'd be in love with.

Physical Characteristics

1. I'm into charming sensible guy with a smile that knocks my socks off
2. I'm a sucker for dimples
3. I'm obsessed with long lashes, sexy nose without the big holes (hehe), and perfect teeth
4. I don't fare well with tattoos, piercing, and unkempt hair. (gotta be neat and organized dude)
5. I can do with someone who's at least 5'7 and 2-4 years older.
6. He's gotta have a healthy body

Traits and Personality

1. He loves God more than anything in this world
2. I'd court someone who's neat, tidy, and organized myself
3. He doesn't smoke, do drugs, and drink religiously
4. He's an intellectually stimulating, talented (can draw or write well… hehe), and well-rounded person
5. He's fluent in spoken and written English, and preferably any other language
6. He has an orgasmic sense of humor
7. He's proactive, disciplined, and mature
8. He's emotionally, spiritually, mentally, physically, and FINANCIALLY stable
9. He has a cool and loving family
10. He's gregarious, friendly, understanding, patient, loving, honest, loyal, hardworking, and God-fearing
11. He bonds well with my friends and family
12. He has eyes only for me
13. He loves and understands me - moody and grumpy or not.
14. Oh, and he cooks too


But it doesn't really matter, does it? When Love strikes, everything I see is flawless. Every imperfection that I've been avoiding becomes beautiful, and my wishlist becomes as valuable as trash.

When cupid aims, my heart is the focal point. It hurts yet I can do nothing to ease the pain but wait. I'm scared of being hurt, of loving and then leaving, of loving and then crying, or of loving and then regretting. I can't seem to settle in one place, let alone one person. I can't imagine myself being tied down to a limited scope of my life, exposing myself to all the pain and insecurities the world gladly harbors.

And if it means breaking free from Love that is yet to happen, I'm going solo. The risk is not worth the pain and it doesn't even justify the shame. I know how hard it is to love, how much more to be in love.

I musn't fall in love.

So even if a possible life-long prom date arrives and he loves me for who am, no buts, no ifs, no condition... and he understands my moods and is patient enough to put up with me... and at the end of the day he's reserved the sweetest hug that spells loyalty, and the umpteenth first kiss that promises devotion...and he's as silly as he's opinionated with punch lines that leave me laughing with myself and anecdotes that leave me pondering... and his overflowing initiative and gregarious disposition makes it easy for him to bond with my loved ones...and he cleans and cooks and looks handsome in his apron especially when he flashes his widest grin... and he leads the prayer and has an enviable relationship with Jesus Christ, and therefore avoids vices and lives for God...and he's romantic without being predictable, sweet without being overrated, and is as hardworking as he is humble... and he loves me and I find no reason for not loving him back...

Hmmm...

I think I might consider falling in love after all.